I'm Tired

Oh so tired.
I'm supposed to find out today if i get to keep my job or not, and i don't know if I'll even hear today. I'm stressed about that.

I haven't heard anything about the other job that i applied for that is hung up in HR. I'm stressed about that.

There are some projects that i'm working on right now that are for really important people. I messed it up, and now i'm fixing it on a time crunch. I'm stressed about that.

Last night i was at church from 5:30 until 1:15am making a kung fu movie. I'm tired and grouchy. I'm stressed about that.

My grandmother who just found out she has stomach cancer and had most of her stomach removed now will most likely have to take the chemo that they said she probably wouldnt need and just found out that her blind husband has been charging thousands of dollars on credit cards that they cant afford. We're going down there this weekend. I'm stressed about that.

I have no money. None. at all. Yesterday i checked my balance and i was negative a bunch because my insurance direct withdrew my payment. I have overdraft coverage, but because of the timing that's gonna cost me $64 that i didnt want to waste. I'm stressed about that.

My ankle hurts now, even though i haven't twisted it. This is usually caused by heavy stress. I'm stressed about that.

All this stress... is making me a very angry person. If it weren't for self control, i would swear a lot and hit people. Thank you God for that.

My girl is on Prince Edward Island right now.
I wish i were with her.

Another day in paradise

Today is another momentous day for me. They all seem to be as of late. This afternoon I have a meeting to find out if I get my job back(I was RIFed) and then I think I have another one next Tuesday and that will be more about that. ALSO today is my mom’s 43rd birthday so happy birthday to her. ALSO this morning Jeanette left for 2 weeks on a road trip with her mom to Prince Edward Island in Canada. Ya, granted in the grand scheme of things, 2 weeks really isn’t that long, but hey, I’m allowed to miss my girl. Let me tell ya, this whole “Relationship” thing is great. I can’t say it’s been easy, because they never are; but it’s been good. We have our challenges, and our struggles, but we’re both committed to this and we aren’t giving up. For those of you that are counting we’re at 4.5 months. To quell your naysaying (those of you who naysay) who might say things like “oh, you hardly know each other! You probably don’t even get on each other’s nerves yet! It’ll never last! Just wait until she sees how annoying and messy and and and… whatever else you are!!” well to you, I’d like to do a little naysaying of my own…. “Hey! Shut up! Trust me, we get on each other’s nerves, we push each other, we get mad, we forgive, we laugh, we cry (well I mean… SHE does… I’m a man. I don’t cry), we grill out together. So there ya go. My daily quota of nay is now said. (Naysay is one of the best verbs EVER!) Ok so anyway things are going well. Gwyn is gonna mail me her Cable modem so I can get internet up at home and then my blogging revolution will begin anew. Whether or not I’ll stay on xanga is yet to be determined, but I’m leaning away from it strongly. I’ll encourage you all to come follow. It’ll be fun out there. We’ll all go together. Once again a Welshmnky shall lead them. I don’t call you my followers for nothing. Oh and if you are from work and you’re spying on me, I wrote this at lunch and posted it during some free time I had. Thought you should know.